Happy Monday! I'm having a crisis...

It's snowing or raining outside..I'm actually not at all positive which one it actually is.  I'm in class and writing on this blog which should tell you all that I am bored to death.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about life considering so much is changing.  This weekend, while my boyfriend and I were lounging around, he very candidly asked me if I still wanted to do public relations as my career.  We were watching the new show "The Taste" and I had been discussing with him how much I loved to cook and really thought I could go on the show.  Well, I suppose at some point I made the comment that I could go on that show and then I wouldn't have to sit in a cubicle every day for the rest of my life, I could just do what I love.  So he asked...and I don't blame him for asking.  What scared me in that moment was the fact that I didn't know the answer.  Instead I got quiet and mumbled a very quiet "I don't know."  

To be completely honest with all of you, I didn't have the best semester this past fall.  Classes were rough for me and I struggled, even within my major. It was upsetting and frustrating and I left for Christmas break feeling very sad.  Like someone had burst my PR bubble.  When I came back for the Spring I was offered an amazing internship at a small PR firm in the city, a mentorship program with the Vice President of TBS, and I had a wonderful conversation with my adviser in which she assured me that I was good at what I do.

Well...I should feel better right?  I should want to do this again, right?  Wrong. So terribly wrong.  I am literally having a quarter life crisis and I have no idea what to do about it.

I have been taking the time, upon realizing I was having a quarter life crisis, to think about what I really want to get out of life.  What are my dreams?  What do I see myself doing?  While not everything fits into a picture perfect, step-by-step, scenario, it is what I want in my life and I am going to try my hardest to accomplish it.

1.  I will continue my education with public relations and graduate from my University
2.  I will search for a job as a wedding planner and obtain any extra necessary documentation to do so
3.  I want to eventually open either my own wedding planning company or a bakery
4.  I want to have the opportunity to stay home with my children when that is the case
5.  I want to have a successful blog in my lifetime

That's what I want as a career.  A compilation or variation of all of that.  So no, it's not exactly public relations, but it's my dream.  My degree will help me achieve all of it.

Pinterest pick of the week!

There is so much truth to this.  I think there is something so beautiful about a house with flowers.  It brightens things up like no diamond could.  So cute!

Sunday recap!

Happy Sunday everyone!  It's cold in New Jersey and I am dreading the fact that I have class tomorrow...but that is besides the point.

It has been a really long week here and probably an even longer weekend.  Between staring my internship in the city with an hour and a half commute to rushing back for night classes and business dinners, I hardly had time to slow down.  This weekend I haven't slept past 6:30 a.m. once...not even ONCE.  Needless to say I am utterly exhausted and have to repeat it this week.  Yikes.  

I'm so tired I don't even think I grasped a single thing from church this morning which is horrible of me.  I was just so focused on the million other little things going on.  It's funny because usually I have these weeks every once in a while but for some reason I don't see things slowing down in the near future.  February is a terribly busy month with wonderful things planned but man, it's times like these when I still wish I had caffeine!

On a totally weird side note tangent, I found out today that my married ex-boyfriend, whom I dated all through high school, is having a baby.  It was weird when he got married. I mean granted I wanted to get married like yesterday, but still, besides the point.  I think what makes this all the weirder is that my best friend growing up already has a little girl.  Holy moly....like what?  I in no way mean to judge and I wish them both the best but I suppose I view things differently.  I want to have a huge family, I just want to wait.  I want to spend years with Tim travelling and building a life we are both proud of and feel secure having.  Regardless, this morning I stopped and thought about all of it and couldn't help but feel that awful pang in my chest reminding me that it's not high school anymore.  That graduation is soon, that I have responsibilities, that I am an adult.  None of us are kids anymore and we certainly aren't all hanging out at the beach together talking about when our days would be like this...no they are surely here.

5 spring trends I am excited for

It's freezing in New Jersey today as it is pretty much anywhere.  Just to give some perspective to those of you who might be reading from somewhere warm and sunny, last night I was walking my usual 6 blocks back toward Penn Station from work.  I stopped 4 blocks from the train to pick myself up a grande latte.  The 4 block walk is only about 5 minutes and in those five minute it took to walk to Penn Station...I drank my coffee...the whole freaking coffee!

Regardless, in light of this cold weather I figured I would look forward to spring and talk about the trends I am most looking forward to!

1. Colorful blazers

Left: Old Navy, $34.94.  Right: Old Navy, $39.94

How cute are these for spring?!  You could dress them up for work or dress them down for a weekend.  Blazers are very in for the spring, especially in bright colors.  I can't wait to buy a couple of these for myself.

2. Statement jewelry

Left to right: JCrew, $165, $128, $138, $150

Alright, I know these are a bit expensive but my God they are to DIE FOR.  I especially love the first two and have been secretly saving up for at least one of them but I am so torn.  Statement jewelry has been in for some time but I think we are going to see a lot of it this spring.  You can absolutely find cheaper pieces but I saw this babies in the store window over the weekend and haven't been able to stop thinking about them since.

3.  Black and white

No picture needed for this one: yup.  The staple in all of our closets, the things we wear on rainy days or days we are feeling crappy is now considered on trend.  Black and white was all over the runway's for spring and I am very curious to see if there will be an influx in people wearing it or if the people that always wear black and white will just suddenly become trendy...what a funny thought!

4.  Flats and low heels

$228, Kate Spade

Flats are going to be HUGE for spring this year.  In fact, Kate Spade has been highlighting flats all week on their website to talk up this trend.  I am excited about this one because I have always love flats.  I am a sucker for being comfortable yet fashionable so I am looking forward to this.  Also, how freaking cute are those shoes?  

5.  Sneaker heels

Forever 21, $37.80

Guys, I hate to say I like these...but I really like these.  This trend started to catch on last fall and I think it is going to be one that sticks.  I think you will see cute floral prints like these or other loud colors on this statement shoe for spring.  Yikes, I can't believe these finally won me over...

Do bloggers really need to pick a theme?

Everything I read about blogging in preparation for this journey tells me to stick to a specific theme with my writing.  If you like to cook, write about that.  If you are a mom, chronicle your families journey through life.  If you design, detail your ideas for readers.  What I am finding an issue for me is that I have a lot of interests...a lot of blog themes, if you will.  I love to cook and do often.  I can't wait to marry my boyfriend and eventually start our family.  I working for a fashion and beauty public relations firm so I am sure I will have my fair share of input on that topic as well.  I keep trying to find one word to describe this blog and everything I hope for it to be down the road, but I just can't do it.  What I can determine now is that this blog will be a meeting place of ideas.  For me and for you, my readers. Oh I so hope someone's reading.  

The thing is that for years I have admired other peoples writing, humor and zest for life.  I often found myself thinking that I could do the same thing.  When I tried the first time I found that my voice wasn't there, perhaps I wasn't investing the time in my blog that it deserved.  But I'm older now, a lot wiser, and perhaps in need of a therapeutic escape on the weekdays and weekends that allows me to talk openly about what life throws my way.  I think this will be fun and I hope that someone stays around long enough to enjoy it with me.

Happy Monday!  Hopefully most of you are off for the holiday!  Any thoughts on blogging and what has helped you?  I'd love the input :)

A few moments from our weekend

Cutest milk containers ever!

My perfect bed...Tim doesn't agree 

Been looking for a chair like this for so long! It's called a "chair and a half" 

Such a fitting find on our date day

Tim testing chairs for himself...he liked this one

But he really liked this one...I love doing life with this guy.  

Today we have just been bumming around Tim's family's house.  It's been great but we decided to get out for a bit and use the awesome Red Mango Groupon I bought last night!  First we headed to Crate&Barrel just for fun.  We walked around talking over what we liked and didn't like for our future house and laughing at all the things we realized we disagreed on.  I liked the table with the country bench, he wanted a bed with no posts...that sort of thing.  I ended up getting this adorable little fruit crate for my fridge at school but I was so sad that I couldn't buy the whole store.  I want my own kitchen so bad (ugh).  

We bummed around for a bit more at the store then headed over to Chipotle for lunch!  It was so packed, but well worth the wait.  After that we ended the day with some amazing froyo at Red Mango.  Typically it isn't our favorite because we enjoy splurging on our sweets, but we have been on a health kick! 

Have a great weekend!

A Quick Hello!

Towards the end of 2012 I decided It was time to create a new blog.  In past years I had tried my hand at blogging on various different sites but as life changed so did the style of my writing and my interests.  So...here I am and I am glad to be here!  I welcome you all to visit the "About Me" page to learn a bit more about who I am.  Hopefully I hold your attention long enough to continue on this blogging journey with me in 2013!  A little about the title of the blog....I love hair bows and my boyfriend has been nicknamed Smiles many times in his life.  We decided to throw those two together as inspiration for the blog.  You will get a little bit of both of us on this blog :)

--Hope to see you soon--