Well it's Tuesday...and SEPTEMBER!

I'm so excited it's September I can't even begin to describe it to you...but it's also Tuesday, which for most of us feels like Monday so today also sucks.

Anyway.  Typically on Tuesday's I will post another part of The Anxiety Diaries but since I really thought today was Monday we will just have to be behind a day this week.  Bare with me...it's been a loooongggg weekend.

To catch you all up, my uncle got married this weekend!  He and I are only four years apart (I am the oldest granddaughter in the family) and so this weekend was particularly amazing because I've grown really close to his wife these past couple of years.  She's such a fantastic person and I am in total awe of their relationship.  Watching her walk down the aisle and seeing how happy she was (the minute she saw him she started waving really big and I think we all basically melted and died) was so heartwarming.  I'm SO happy for them.

Here's a recap:

On Thursday evening I drove home to my parents house, which was a nice, brief visit until they informed me I needed an oil change before I drove to Buffalo (5 hours away.)  So on Friday I woke up as early as I could to go wait on the damn oil change line and then got in my car and drove alone to Buffalo for the first time...go me.  I guess it's kinda weird to say I am proud of myself for making the drive, but I am really proud of myself.  I also pumped my own gas for the first time and who knew that could be so empowering?!

I stayed with one of my aunts and uncle's this time around as opposed to my grandparents and this was obviously exciting because I had a weekend of sleepovers with my 4 and 7 year old cousins.  I have a lot of younger cousins and it's hard living far away from them.  I got to read the girls some books before bed on Friday night and it's moments like those where I just want to pack my bags and move to Buffalo (I am really considering this.)  It's just hard to feel like you miss all of those moments with all of them when you are so far away.  We read and talked about their days and laughed about things that wouldn't be funny to an adult but were in that moment because it made them happy.  It was a fantastic night.

Saturday started the madness as it was the rehearsal dinner and what not.  They ended up renting a boat to take everyone out for dinner and it was just beautiful! It was an absolutely great way to celebrate.

Sunday was, of course, the wedding.  I did my hair based on one of the hair tutorials posted on The Small Things Blog and it came out fan-freaking-tastic.  Her tutorials are so easy and great!  I wish I had pictures of my hair but with the craziness of the day I really didn't get to take pictures of myself.  Hopefully I will get to show you all more once their wedding photos are up.  They had a really short but so so so sweet ceremony which worked out perfectly because it had started to rain during cocktail hour but that passed and the reception itself turned out fantastic.  After the wedding (which was a blast because it's my family and we throw great parties) the whole bridal party, my grandparents, aunts...family....etc went to a bar in downtown Buffalo...no I'm not kidding.  There was an after party after THE party in which my whole family pretty much attended.  I'm newly 21 so I think in a way this was one of my favorite parts.  Buffalo has such a great downtown area and it was such a good time.  Needless to say, it's still blowing my mind that I was in downtown Buffalo in the wee hours of the morning and somehow rolled out of bed and made my way back to New Jersey....Also, bruises?  Where did you come from?!

Pictures!!!

The best little helper around!

Largest wedding party...ever!

The Bride!

Also, a few favorite photos from before school started to finish off this recap!

Wedding wear

I love love love, LOVE weddings.  Watching two people so in love make that commitment to each other just gets me every time.  This summer Tim's sister is getting married and then roughly three weeks later, my uncle is getting married as well!  So, while my mind is of course is on the lovely couples and their impending nuptials, I can't help but obsess over what to wear!

I'm that type of girl that dresses for comfort.  If I don't feel comfortable in it, it will show.  I will tug and pull and grab at the dress the entire night and I'll be asking Tim a million times, "are you sure I look good in this?!" Even though I think I dress for comfort, realistically I typically don't.  So, this time around, the goal is to find something that I feel comfortable in.  Something I can eat in and dance in and overall, just enjoy the love in.

When shopping for weddings, what do you all typically buy?  Help a girl out!!

Here are some options I am thinking of!

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A chalkboard wall, a graduation and a bridal shower!

Happy Wednesday everyone!  I'm currently waiting on Maggie to come over so that we can draw on my newly painted chalkboard wall!  We painted it last week and since you have to let it set for 3 days we are only now getting to draw on it.  I promise to put a picture up of it once there is actually something to look at, right now it's just a black wall.  I woke up last week and just decided that morning that today was the day I was going to paint so of course I enlisted the help of my best friend.  I think we gave my mom a bit of a heart attack but it really did come out nice.

After painting the chalkboard wall I packed my things and headed to Tim's for a very busy weekend.  On Saturday, his very talented sister graduated from college and on Sunday it was her surprise bridal shower (Cinderella themed)!  It was such a fun weekend and I wanted to share some of my favorite photos with all of you (the new pictures of Tim and I are soooo nice).  Make sure to check back tomorrow for our guest post!

 

Happy Monday! I'm having a crisis...

It's snowing or raining outside..I'm actually not at all positive which one it actually is.  I'm in class and writing on this blog which should tell you all that I am bored to death.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about life considering so much is changing.  This weekend, while my boyfriend and I were lounging around, he very candidly asked me if I still wanted to do public relations as my career.  We were watching the new show "The Taste" and I had been discussing with him how much I loved to cook and really thought I could go on the show.  Well, I suppose at some point I made the comment that I could go on that show and then I wouldn't have to sit in a cubicle every day for the rest of my life, I could just do what I love.  So he asked...and I don't blame him for asking.  What scared me in that moment was the fact that I didn't know the answer.  Instead I got quiet and mumbled a very quiet "I don't know."  

To be completely honest with all of you, I didn't have the best semester this past fall.  Classes were rough for me and I struggled, even within my major. It was upsetting and frustrating and I left for Christmas break feeling very sad.  Like someone had burst my PR bubble.  When I came back for the Spring I was offered an amazing internship at a small PR firm in the city, a mentorship program with the Vice President of TBS, and I had a wonderful conversation with my adviser in which she assured me that I was good at what I do.

Well...I should feel better right?  I should want to do this again, right?  Wrong. So terribly wrong.  I am literally having a quarter life crisis and I have no idea what to do about it.

I have been taking the time, upon realizing I was having a quarter life crisis, to think about what I really want to get out of life.  What are my dreams?  What do I see myself doing?  While not everything fits into a picture perfect, step-by-step, scenario, it is what I want in my life and I am going to try my hardest to accomplish it.

1.  I will continue my education with public relations and graduate from my University
2.  I will search for a job as a wedding planner and obtain any extra necessary documentation to do so
3.  I want to eventually open either my own wedding planning company or a bakery
4.  I want to have the opportunity to stay home with my children when that is the case
5.  I want to have a successful blog in my lifetime

That's what I want as a career.  A compilation or variation of all of that.  So no, it's not exactly public relations, but it's my dream.  My degree will help me achieve all of it.